My name should be Miss Independent because I hate using other peoples help and I really hate depending on other people. That's why I have such a tough time in relationships.... I am going to have to find someone who can either accept it or change it. I think I have, finally, but I'm not getting my hopes up. Thanks to everybody that follows me or likes my posts!

I need your guys' opinion. Is it worth letting yourself fall in love if you are almost positive that you'll get hurt in the end? Is the journey worth it? Please help me...

I was really into this guy for about 3 years and I kept wondering, why? Why hasn't he made a move, or why don't we talk to each other often? And I was just so confused. I kept hoping and wishing and dreaming. And then I went to a retreat and I met this guy. It is almost like karma because for so long I'd been asking for something like this, and then I liked him even more than the guy before! And I'm getting so upset with life! He was sweet, funny, nice, and he liked me. He put his arm around me, and was flirting, and there I was...feeling amazing because I had never done that before. I'd never had someone like me. We exchanged numbers the night before we left, and we texted all day the next day. We have been texting for two weeks now, I think. And throughout our conversations, he's asked me if I'm dating anyone, and said that I'm cute and that he likes texting me. But then he'll quit responding randomly, which is fine. I get it, busy life. But he won't text me for days, until I text him. I feel really obsessed! I'm just like, give me a sign that it's not just me here. I've decided to wait it out until he texts me. FRUSTRATION! Weirdest part is, my sister is having the exact same problem with someone else.

There has been so much going on with school, I can't be on here as much as I'd like. So much peer pressure and drama that I would just like to slap everyone. Not to mention all of the hypocrites. I noticed that I have been pulling away from my friends, but I've gotten really close to one I never was. I guess that's a plus side to all of this. Oh well, one day at a time I guess.

Today I went to my sister's house. I finished the mural I was painting on her wall. Her step-sons were over, I love them so much. They made my day better. :) I can't wait to see them again. My little brother came with and he got upset. Now, I have bruises and scratches. While I was there, my friend sent me a message and said we should hangout on Monday. 'Our last hurrah, before school.' (School starts Tuesday) But, Monday is my birthday. I don't think she forgot. Or I hope not. I need to go figure out what I'm making for supper.

Today, I have been at home all day. My mind has been weighted down by all of my friends troubles. I know that doesn't make sense, but it's how it is. So much drama, so hard to explain. As time goes on, you will be slowly filled in on what's been happening.